underneath my clothes

i feel like i want to continue my blog after several months of just playing cabal hahahha!

Dreaming can be hard sometimes most especially when you need to wake up in the end and face reality. However, others choose to dream and so addicted in dreaming... because, this is where they fulfill their fantasies. Now the big question is how we can dream without feeling the excruciating pains of reality each time we wake up?

--- Dream with your feet on the ground while your hand is stretch up high.

--- Dream and know when to wake up.

--- Dream without hesitations, but be ready of the consequences.

and finally..

--- Dream with your eyes open.

i was in the mood playing CABAL today because i have received two blessing beads for one day.. unfortunately GM announced that there would be an emergency maintenance.... you know how it feels to be disappointed?? well i guess you know what i mean!whaaaaaaaaaaaa! the maintenance is soooo wrong timing! i just hope that i still love to play CABAL after a day maintenance and was extended for about another day... and after which is another maintenance... which GM says from 12:45 pm - 1:30 pm.... ARGHHHH!! its almost 2:30! DARN!

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true. At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it's not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away.

Schoolbag in hand
She leaves home in the early morning
Waving goodbye
With an absent-minded smile
I watch her go
With a surge of that well-known sadness
And I have to sit down for a while
The feeling that I'm loosing her forever
And without really entering her world
I'm glad whenever I can share her laughter
That funny little girl

Slipping through my fingers all the time
I try to capture every minute
The feeling in it
Slipping through my fingers all the time
Do I really see what's in her mind
Each time I think I'm close to knowing
She keeps on growing
Slipping through my fingers all the time

Sleep in our eyes
Her and me at the breakfast table
Barely awake
I let precious time go by
Then when she's gone
There's that odd melancholy feeling
And a sense of guilt
I can't deny
What happened to the wonderful adventures
The places I had planned for us to go
Well some of that we did
But most we didn't
And why I just don't know

Slipping through my fingers all the time
I try to capture every minute
The feeling in it
Slipping through my fingers all the time
Do I really see what's in her mind
Each time I think I'm close to knowing
She keeps on growing
Slipping through my fingers all the time

Sometimes I wish that I could freeze the picture
And save it from the funny tricks of time
Slipping through my fingers -

Schoolbag in hand
She leaves home in the early morning
Waving goodbye with an absent-minded smile

"When we meet someone and fall in love, we have a sense that the whole universe is on our side. i saw this happen today as the sun went down. and yet if something goes wrong, there is nothing left! no herons, no distant music, not even the taste of his lips. how is it possible for the beauty that was there only minutes before to vanish so quickly? life moves very fast. it rushes us from heaven to hell in a matter of seconds...

In love, no one can harm anyone else; we are each of us responsible for our own feelings and cannot blame someone else for what we feel. it hurts when i lost the person i fell in love with. now, though, i am convinced that no one loses anyone, because no one owns anyone. that is the true experience of freedom, having the most important thing in the world without owning it.." ---- OUCH! Yche...

You would think that a healthy and mutually satisfying relationship would leave little reason for either party to seek satisfaction elsewhere, right? Yet when it comes to infidelity, reason is not what's actually at play.

It's true, you can be attracted to someone else, even when your marriage or relationship is a good one. In fact, most people don't set out to have an affair. Even so, affairs happen all the time but is there any rhyme or reason as to why they happen? Is it possible to cheat proof your relationship? While there's no guarantee, you can take steps to protect your relationship from infidelity. Here's how...

Open your eyes
Looking into the past right from the beginning of your relationship will give you the best start. First, consider whether the person you are dating has a history of monogamy - or not. While everyone may deserve a second chance, dating someone with a history of cheating might mean you are setting yourself up for hurt and disappointment from the get-go.

If you find it difficult to broach the topic, simply ask about your potential lover's last relationship. If they don't feel comfortable talking about it, this might be an indication that they have something to hide. Conversely, you may discover that while they were true, a past partner wasn't. While we wouldn't wish this on anyone, your partner's experience of being cheated on might just work in your favor. Since your partner knows how hurtful it can be, they'll be less likely to inflict a similar hurt on you. Finding someone with a solid monogamous history doesn't guarantee fidelity, but it certainly increases the chances!

Work it
Keep innocent friendships or work relationships in check. Simply, don't let them cross any boundaries. Congratulatory hugs and pecks on the cheek, "professional bonding" activities like lunch dates and after work cocktails - these are all situations that can lead to attachments that are more than just professional or familiar. Emotional unfaithfulness occurs when a person develops a strong emotional bond with someone outside their primary relationship. This new relationship may be platonic, but it is just as dangerous as adultery. A person is being emotionally unfaithful when they seek comfort in another, while keeping secrets from the person in their main relationship.

Just friends
While everyone needs to open up to make new friends and develop good relationships, there are ways to do it that don't involve the kind of emotional sharing that one is supposed to have with one's partner. Ways to avoid emotional unfaithfulness include keeping professional relationships professional. For instance, if you go out to lunch with a colleague, invite a third party. Avoid physical contact with the other person and don't share the intimate details of your life.

If you sincerely feel attracted to the other person and enjoy conversing with them more than with your spouse or partner, admit it and then steer clear of the temptation by steering clear of the person. It's how we behave in tempting situations that opens or shuts the door on cheating. A couple's responsibility to one another is knowing where and when to set boundaries with other people.

Stay tuned
The best way to avoid an affair is to stay close, open and intimate with your partner. In a world of temptation, it's important to keep the boundaries clear. It's just as important to keep the lines of communication, love, intimacy and adventure open with your partner. Instead of keeping secrets, talk with each other about your experiences. It's only through openness that your relationship will flourish and you will remain bullet-proof against indiscretion.

source: http://www.californiapsychics.com/articles/Newsletter/2380/Cheat_Proof_Your_Relationship.aspx